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Current Date: August 11, 2058
Character: Dayna Jones
Race: Human
Age: 73, physically about 26
Current residence: Atheria City, Eresiel
There was a point in my life when I was sure my parents hated me. I’m sure that every kid goes through a phase when they do everything in their power to piss their parents off because that’s the point they’ve reached in their lives. That phase might be short-lived or longer lived or, in some cases, it might just never end.
I know that my parents never resented me for joining the army. They weren’t exactly pleased with the idea, but my grades weren’t great, and it seemed like a good opportunity. Do the army thing for the required time and you get to study into the field you were wanting. It seemed like a win-win situation to me.
It was not a win-win situation for me. Especially not since, not long before I left, I had another hard dip into that my-parents-hate-me phase. I’d been through it briefly when I’d been something like twelve or thirteen. The rebellious teen stage and I had done quite a few things that I would probably consider fairly out there by the standards of being a kid at that age.
The thing is, though, that particular point in my life is not when I thought my parents—my dad, especially—hated me. There were plenty of times when he was unhappy with me—they both were—but I think I was possibly no more than eight or nine when I really thought that Dad hated me with a passion. I was a kid, I saw things with my kid-eyes and even mom couldn’t really talk me out of this belief that Dad hated me.
He was rough on me when it came to my grade, something I didn’t associate with the fact that he was a teacher himself. A teacher I personally never had to have, myself, but a teacher, nonetheless. I guess he thought that I could do better, but his methods just weren’t the greatest, not when it came to me. I’m not dissing how he did while he was teaching others but there’s a difference between teaching the children of strangers and teaching your own.
That’s how I see it, in any case.
I know that at one point—fuzzy as that memory now is, of course—I went to Mom to ask her if she knew what I’d done for Dad to hate me so much. Remember, I was still fairly young, I was struggling somewhat in school though I was doing my best, and while Dad wasn’t the strictest one around, he still was fairly strict and to me, it equated something that was close to hatred for me.
I thought that if I knew what I’d done, I could fix it. Sounds simple enough, right?
Man, Mom’s face got so sad when I asked her that question, fuzzy as that whole time in my life is, that part is just so clear, and I don’t even remember what she might have told me about Dad or not. My focus shifted so rapidly to her and the fact that I’d made her sad. I don’t think you’d ever seen a kid do a one-eighty so fast in a mood.
I remember that I spent the next however-long just apologizing to her, not really hearing what she was saying, and trying to tell her that I hadn’t meant to make her sad and that I was sorry and that I’d do better next time.
In case you couldn’t tell, I had a favourite. Don’t tell Dad, though. I don’t play favourites anymore, not at the age I’m at, but I was young, I felt that Dad hated me and was being unjustly rough with me and my school grades and there was Mom just being the best mom she could be. So yeah, I had a favourite and that’s all there is to it.
That memory in itself feels somewhat clear but the rest of the few days around it is fuzzy. I know she sat me down at the table and we waited for Dad to come home so we could all talk. I faintly recall just how much dread I was feeling because I didn’t want Dad to know I knew he hated me—he didn’t but you know, kid brain and all. I don’t really remember the discussion we had on that day, but I suppose that this is moot too.
My grades didn’t get any better after that, but I do know he tried to be a little less pushy about my grades. He still did what he could for me to make sure I had passing grades, at the very least, but he wasn’t pushing for better than I clearly could manage. I was doing what I could, and it got me where I am now, so that’s not so terrible, is it?