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Current Date: November 11, 2058
Character: Natanael Draxelis
Race: Halfling – Elf (forest) / Human
Age: 37, physically about 25
Current residence: Atheria City, Eresiel
Every time I think I’m done thinking of Wen, they surface. It isn’t all that common. As of early last year, I felt as though I had truly finished writing, I had managed to put down into words both on paper and in the system, what I remember of this unseen-to-others friend of mine. As it turns out, however, every few months, I find myself spotting something and that something will remind me of Wen in some way. Mostly, it’s a memory I know I’ve written down before, but just this morning turned out to be a little different.
We’ve had just a bare smattering of snow so far; that being, there was one morning a week and a half ago when we woke up to a snow cover that was barely an inch deep. Otherwise, the temperature has been fairly comfortable. Not enough for short-sleeved shirts, or to go without a jacket, but still. It’s been comfortable for this time of the year.
My first pit stop in the mornings is usually to head to the stable to take care of my big, loving idiot. I let him roam freely with the others most of the time, though, once a week or so, we go on rides. This morning was not a ride morning, it was mostly a clean-up-stall-and-feed morning. A morning when I give this big and strong ball of slobber and love a treat. He knows my routine so well that he comes up to the fence when I step up and I don’t even need to fight with him to get him inside for his treat.
I’m not sure why the sight of him eating through his treat triggered a memory. It’s not as though I haven’t been in this situation weekly for years at this point. Maybe it was the weather, though the memory put me back closer to very late spring when the snow was mostly all gone. At this point, I’ve stopped trying to figure out the triggers and I just go with the flow. It is a slow flow, but it is a flow, nonetheless.
So, as I watched him eat, I took out a little notepad I always carry with me—not for these memories specifically, but to note down anything at all that might make its way through my mind—and I noted down the few details of the Wen-memory. Enough that I could transcribe it back into the bigger book properly without being too confused about it, and I still few enough words to not take too much space. I didn’t want to start writing paragraphs in this notepad, that wasn’t the point.
But really, with just a few words, it was enough for me to know which memory had been triggered and what it had been about, and with just these words, I could write out more details later.
We’d been out in the fields, in that memory. Not too far from the fence and it hadn’t actually been that great of a day. It had been one of those days during which Wen seemed to be feeling under the weather and there was some nastiness to their tone. Not enough to make me cry, but it made me uncomfortable. I do remember that much. There had been a break in the face—that I do remember bringing up to the adults—and I remember how, just as we neared that break in the fence, Wen had turned to me and glowered, told me that I had to stop blaming them for all the chaos in our lives.
Mind you, I hadn’t said a single word yet and, most of the time, they were the sweetest and bestest of friend I could have ever had. They huffed when I blinked at them, I’m fairly certain that blink could have been considered owlish, and they went on to remind me that they hadn’t done anything too terrible in weeks. Which, that hadn’t been a lie, the last few weeks had been very calm, chaos-wise. So, I truly have no idea why that glowering had come through at all.
In the notebook, though, all I did write down were a few words. Grumpy Wen, fields, broken fence, chaos. It was more than enough for me to recall the memory in enough detail to note it down into the system and archive it with the rest.
In a way, I guess that I might be remembering these memories for a time to come; there’s no putting down into an exact count just how many, or few, of these memories I do truly remember, and no one knows what triggers them. On that same note, I don’t know for certain if I’m making up any of these but, you know? At this point in my life? That’s fine. Wen is in my past, and writing about them won’t bring them back. Not that I’m looking to do that, either.