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Timeline/World: Until Tomorrow – Project: Lucifer
Characters: Oliver Adams
Race: Human
Age: 31
Current residence: San Clemente, Ecuador
Final Word Count: 786 words
The nightmare came out of nowhere. I’m not even sure if it really is from memories or just my mind deciding to do whatever it wanted out of the blue. One way or another, it was unpleasant and I’m just glad that I came to as silently as I did.
It’s been strange, being able to sleep whenever I want. I still mostly sleep at night, but I no longer have to live with the timer that had been attached to my medical issue. Since I woke up, I’ve given thought about removing the bracelet, but I’ve worn it since I was just oh so absolutely young, it seems like it might be whatever is left of my past that I’m somewhat clinging to for some reason; maybe it’s just time to let it go.
I do like being able to stay up late and look at the stars, though. It was beautiful the first time I did; it still is beautiful now and I love it most when Sasha is there with me. I feel safe when he’s at my side and I don’t think I would want to change that for the world—what’s left of it, anyway.
There have been some rumours that the Silencers seem to be fading, I don’t know what to think about that. The nearest orb to us is in Portoviejo though I know there’s one way far off at sea, but it is so far off that we barely see it; it’s like little more than just a small blip of light. It looks to be about the size of the sun as it sets in the distance. So it’s almost impossible to tell whether or not it has faded.
The nightmare, though, it still makes me shudder to think about it. I’d been sleeping so deeply. This is a thing I’ve had to adapt to, too. With the medical issues, I would just conk out at sunset, wake up at sunrise. I would be about as rested as a normal night of sleep, I guess. Now, I drift off to sleep, I dream, I wake up, I can nap, it feels different, and it took some adapting, but I wouldn’t go back.
I’m not even sure if it was a reflex or just the habit that we’ve all gotten into of keeping quiet. The need to survive the Silencers as they watch over us and take away anything that makes too much noise.
I don’t know that I remember ever actually dreaming before, not with the forced sleep. I might have, but I never remembered any of it. The few people I’ve trusted with my life, as far as being around while I slept, have all told me that I would sleep like the dead. Eyes not moving, breathing slow and steady at all times. A proper sleeping beauty, whatever that is supposed to be.
Gerard was in that nightmare. The man who abused this disease that kept its hold on me since I was born. He looked like the monster I felt him to be by the time I was saved from the situation, and he looked just so angry. He looked angry and yet his voice was oddly calm; I think that only made it all the more terrifying. In the nightmare, he told me that I had made everything unnecessarily harder than they needed to be, he truly hoped that I knew that and that he would need to punish me for my behaviour.
In a way, it’s not even his anger that got to me; it’s not his looks. It’s what he was saying. While I was there, the man was slowly trying to turn me into a very obedient companion for his use and while I slept… well his training took a more physical presence, and I would never have known about it had I not been essentially swept away from it all.
He lunged at me, in that nightmare. I think it’s that particular part that woke me up. It really might not seem like much of a nightmare, but, to me, it was. The sight of him while I was supposed to be in a safe place was terrifying. The sound of him just so angry that I’d gotten away was just icing on the terrifying monster cake. I never imagined that I would be afraid of this man, but, let me tell you, I was terrified of him when I left, and I couldn’t make it far enough to feel safe.
I know he’s gone. If he’s not gone, he’s so far away that I know he’ll never be around again and that’s what I set my belief to be.