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Current Date: February 23, 2023
Character: Xiang Zhao
Race: Merman – Octopian
Age: 34
Current residence: Mariana Trench
I’m fairly certain that, to some, the places where I find helpers—and the type of helpers I find—are quite baffling. I don’t need helpers of the mer kind. Merfolks are fine and that is beside the point. My helpers are usually shaped rather differently and their brains don’t have the necessary connections for us to have full discussions together. I’m aware that they can discuss, so to speak, with their own species, but interspecies discussions like those I have with Halim are not going to happen.
Anything that swims in these waters I can manage to draw to my side as a helper. There are plenty of species that I avoid for the sake of potential danger and others because, well, they would do me no good either due to their shape or size or the fact that they might stand out a little too much for the task I need of them.
I used to do this a lot more when I was younger; I think I was testing the reach of my abilities. I didn’t want to turn these lesser—so to speak—creatures into slaves. I only needed their help for small tasks. These tasks, when I was so much younger, were, well, fitting of my being a child, I suppose. They were childish. Especially considering this was during the rare times when I was around others who were possibly close to my age.
Using a fish or two to tickle someone else. To steal a piece of food from someone’s hand. Little things that were mostly harmless. The former happened a handful of times, the latter, up until I found properly forage for my own food once I was truly on my own, happened a little more often than I’d like to admit but to child-me who was starving—as far as my child mind and stomach were concerned—this was one of my only options because even back then, once I’d started roaming, I was looked upon rather poorly.
I was not the only child who used lesser fishes to play around, or so most adults I came across seemed to think. As far as I was concerned, I wasn’t playing around, but I saw plenty of others who seemed to play with small schools of fish and I won’t lie, one of the things I did like to do as a child—out of resentment, perhaps, I can hardly remember that much detail at this point—was drawing away these schools of fishes. I could, as much as I managed back then and it was already quite something, attract these fishes to me with very little effort necessary.
I’ve lost count of the number of children whining or complaining about their friends just very randomly abandoning them. I always made sure I was mostly out of sight when I did this. Only once, to my memory, did a young boy—another octopian just like me but in much, much brighter colours—saw me and assumed that I was the one taking his so-called friends away from him. He had no proof but as they were all slowly, lazily really, swimming towards me, I suppose it was enough proof for him.
I recall that he complained about how I couldn’t just bribe his sidekicks away from him. That it was rude. I might have blinked at him because I don’t know that I’d heard that word before—sidekick. I had no idea what it meant but since I had been in the process of drawing the fishes away from him as he’d been playing with them, I could only assume he meant them.
These are strange memories to relive. I wasn’t a bad child, not really. At least, I didn’t try to be. I admit that I might have been a bit of a butt while I was still learning what I could of the archives of the sea witches’ knowledge. I had no family to call my own and I might have been a bit bitter about that. It’s so long ago at this point, I suppose it hardly matters.
Eventually, years down the road, through listening to the land people as they spoke, I did learn what a sidekick was, and I recall being so confused as to how the boy had even known what it had meant. Perhaps it was because he had had a family and they had known. I know I felt confused about that for a short while, but I had things that were much more important than this to deal with and I sort of left it behind.
It’s hard to tell why this particular memory has surfaced recently, not that it matters all that much, does it? I wouldn’t think so, not really. It’s all right, though.